My heart hurts as I try to think about not thinking about you
there's a searing pain in my chest one that I cannot explain
Because as hard as I try, I can't shake the hurt that I feel
Because you're not here with me.
It's been 3 hours yet, maybe more, maybe less
I don't know, I can't tell when I lost track of time
all I know for sure is the anxiety and the pounding in my chest
that feels like it's been running for all my life now.
uuurrrggh!!! even the usual deep breaths don't seem to help this time
not even the loud clicks of my keyboard as I violently type this shit out
nor the fact that I'm saying these words out loud
as if you can hear me...
But you can't... can you? Can you hear the pain hidden in my voice?
Can you see the despair that lies behind my eyes?
Are you even real..? Are you stopping by anytime soon?
Or will you forever be just this faceless figment of my imagination?
This Imagination want really kill me